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August 28, 2005
". . .remind us how little time we have; tomorrow Thou hast not given, only today."Every summer about this time I begin to experience a feeling that I have come in recent years to designate as "cosmic dread." It isn’t exactly that I dread the return to my regular schedule of ministerial duties, or the decline of summer into fall and fall into winter, so much as I dread the pace of life that that schedule increasingly seems to entail. I think we would all agree that the pace of life for most of us has increased exponentially in recent years. The advent of cell phones and e-mail and instant messaging may be hailed by some as time-saving technologies, but personally I find it more and more difficult to put my work away: more and more difficult to separate my home from my workplace, more and more difficult to relax and take the time, as the old saying goes, to simply "smell the roses." Even ministers, who should know better, have allowed themselves to get caught up into the culture of high speed and busy-ness, and especially the myth of our own indispensability. My colleagues rush to buy all the latest computerized gadgets, while I continue to hold out against owning a cell phone in spite of the convenience it will supposedly bestow. Perhaps I am simply out of step--that is certainly a possibility--I have been out of step before!--but more and more it seems to me almost impossible to escape from the world of work. How available do we have to be? How many hours a week are enough? Is there no rest for the weary or the wicked? I think this modern dilemma is one of the reasons that I have enjoyed traveling to visit with our Newburyport congregation’s partner church in Transylvania in recent summers. For the time being, at least, the pace of life is still slower there: though the proliferation of satellite discs rising above small, isolated, medieval looking villages and the ubiquity of cell phone technology in a land with little hard wiring augers no good, even in that remote and in some ways still primitive part of the world. Even in faraway Transylvania, you should know, e-mail and instant messaging and telephones can find you, and they can do so more often and in increasingly more places. Of late I have come to feel more strongly that many of us here in the United States don’t have enough down time. We are overworked even if we are not underpaid. Most peoples’ vacations are, in my opinion, much too short. The situation is different in, for example, France. Writing in an editorial entitled "French Family Values" in a recent edition of the International Herald Tribune, Paul Krugman writes, The French family, without question, has lower disposable income. This translates into lower personal consumption: a smaller car, a smaller house, less eating out.Even the French workweek is shorter than ours! "So," asks Krugman, "which society has made the better choice?" Remember the old Simon and Garfunkel song? Slow down, you move too fast.Lately that song has been kicking around in my head, with its joyful line about watching the "flowers growing" and its invitation to do nothing whatsoever: I got no deeds to do, no promises to keepTwo quotations from the far east which have crossed my desk in recent months extol a similar laid-back, non-anxious approach to life. Lin Yutang, about whom I know nothing except that she or he is a very wise person, suggests that "If you can spend a perfectly useless afternoon in a perfectly useless manner, you have learned to live." And Ryokan, about whom I know only that he lived from 1758 to 1831, has written, Too lazy to be ambitious,How I envy that ability to relax and simply to be! To let today take care of today. More often than not, I am filled with anxiety about the state of my current to-do list, rather than simply allowing myself to "go with the flow." And because of this, I am probably less effective than I might be when a real need or emergency arises. A. Powell Davies, the great 20th century Unitarian preacher, warned against our tendency to get too far ahead of ourselves at the expense of the present. He recognized this as a religious issue. He wrote in a little prayer, O God whom we hope to serve some other time, remind us how little time we have; tomorrow Thou hast not given; only today."Some other time" may never come, today is the only day we can be certain of, so "why" as Thoreau counseled, "should we live with such hurry and waste of life?" If we intend to serve God--and what better way to serve God than to appreciate God’s world?--we had better begin today, right in the here and now. Essayist Annie Dillard writes in Holy the Firm, Every day is a god, each day is a god, and holiness holds forth in time. I worship each god, I praise each day splintered down, splintered down and wrapped in time like a husk, a husk of many colors spreading, at dawn fast over the mountains split.If "holiness holds forth in time,"--and I think most of us would agree with the theology that says it does--than how much greater is our obligation to live in and appreciate the present moment? All of our striving and anxiety after tomorrow is truly a waste of our precious time, which the Hungarian poet Mihaly Babits [in his great poem "Question at Night"] called "that endless, ever-dripping drain." How, then, do we learn to live more fully into this moment of time? We can make a start by paying more attention to the world around us, and by focusing less on the false demands placed upon us by all our wonderful technologies and more upon the beauty that, as the native Americans say, is "above, below, and around us." Poet Mary Oliver makes the point when she writes, "I Walk in the World to Love it." What other reason can there possibly be? What other reason makes any sense? The great naturalist John Burroughs once wrote, The longer I live the more my mind dwells upon the beauty and wonder of the world. . . . I have loved the feel of the grass under my feet, and the sound of the running streams by my side. The hum of the wind in the treetops has always been good music to me. . . .How would most of us, distracted by our cell phones and our computers, by our satellite television and by every means of instant gratification, even know of that beauty and that joy? How, unless we take the time to slow down and watch the flowers grow? Despite my feelings of impending cosmic dread, I know that it is not too late to begin paying more attention to the people and things that are most important. I know that the gentle summer breezes will continue to blow for at least a while longer. And I know that I do not have to fully succumb to the world’s false demands and even falser priorities. Rabbi Nachman of Bratslav, one of the great Hasidic masters of the late 1700s, was for some reason scorned by other rabbis and suffered quite a bit from depression. (I suspect he may have been a victim of cosmic dread in his own time.) In order to help with his problem, he did something which he called "hit-bo-de-dut," a practice of being alone in nature. There, out in the wild, he wrote some of his most beautiful prayers, including this one: Master of the Universe,Something like that is my prayer for all of you, for all of us, in these waning days of summer and impending days of cosmic dread. Let us walk in the world at our own pace, in our own time, and let us not be overwhelmed by the demands of our busy days or by the machines which we have created to "save" time. For we should know by now that we cannot save time, we can only live it moment by moment. We live, as someone (Emerson, I think) has said, only by the law of expenditure. How will we choose to spend our days? The choice is still ours, in spite of what we are sometimes led to believe. May you find a way to slow down and enjoy these last days of summer, and to know that you are held and sustained by a power greater than all the technologies yet invented. May you find peace, now, and in the days to come. Amen. The Rev. Harold E. Babcock
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